Lost

Hi everybody,

I haven't posted in so long. I'm sorry. I used to post so regularly. Now I just can't seem to do it. I have no energy left. Between school, work, and Paige, I'm done. I couldn't imagine having a full time job. I'm not walking Paige like I was. No more long hikes. I just don't have the energy or drive. I'm not doing homework like I was. No motivation. I've missed quite a few classes lately. Happily, I have classmates that are willing to just hand over their notes for photocopying, no questions asked. And I'm getting frustrated with training. Training is a long process. I know that. But I feel like my weak energy is killing the training processes. I'm only doing it half heartedly and because I have to and I think Paige knows it. The most recent: she has forgotten what sit means. She is so wonderful. She follows me everywhere. Last weekend we took her camping up at my parents' cabin. I don't know if she's ever done that before. Earlier this week, I took her to the bookstore to buy the text for my philosophy class. She did great. But I don't know if it was service dog standard. We have a basics class that is going to start later this month. I'm using it more like a learn-to-work-under-distraction class. Why is this so hard? Paige is so smart. I've dealt with dogs before. Why isn't this coming together better?